Isn’t it weird? How you want something so bad, but can’t have it.
By odd twist of fate.
It suddenly sits in the palm of your hand.
The decision then comes as to whether you want to seize the opportunity with it, or again let it pass by.
Although the desire that had been eating at you for a great deal of time is still there, the fact that you now have it
Do you jump at the opportunity and show everyone that this is in fact what you have wanted the entire time?
Or do you sit back and let nature take its course.
But what if you wait too long?
And the moment passes you bye?
What if that split second hesitation results in you losing this said chance?
Why wait around for the moment to occur?
If it is something that you have wanted. That you have written about and dreamed about and had constant mixed feelings about. That you’ve physically, mentally and emotionally longed for. Then what is the hesitation for?
Are you afraid of what will happen?
Are you afraid of what you’ll miss?
Are you afraid?
I was always taught to seize the day and live life to the fullest.
But now I simply find myself waiting around.
To see if I can do it. To see if I can be selfish. To see if I can be.
Well don’t wait too long. Chances are it might not be there when you finally decide that it’s time for it. At least that’s what my Jiminy is telling me.
Something you are proud of this week.
My ability to speak my mind and not let anyone hold me down. I am who I am and if you don’t like it then….oh well. I do what I want and don’t really care how others see me. It’s one of my most awesome qualities. My ability to not give a shit. Fabulous. Wish others would adopt it.
Short term goals.
Keep a level head. Not geek out on anyone. This is the most stressful time of the year for me and therefore I have the tendency to lose my cool. Herego, my promise to myself to keep up my peace and love mentality and TRY not to freak out on anyone. Unless provoked of course. Try being the operative word in the forementioned statement. Try. Try. Try.
A picture of someone/something that had an impact on you.
I tried to put into words when I met her how much she changed my life. But of course I was trying to not vomit everywhere as I met my idol. I came to college as an ignorant child who knew two completely different sides of the world. I went and heard this phenomenal woman speak and as my roommate was attempting to leave due to her run in with strep throat, I just wanted to know more. I wanted to know why, how and what made her tick and made her so incredibly…awesome. She opened my eyes to a world outside of our country and showed me what it meant to be a woman in the world today. She put a name to the feelings I had my entire life. Anything you, a boy, can do I, a girl, can do better. Anything that you, a boy, are allowed to experience I, a girl, also better have the chance to experience. Equality is something that our country is still struggling to accept today and I have made it my life mission to ensure that everyone has an equal opportunity at everything in life. That no little girl grows up only knowing how to work an Easy Bake Oven and not how to throw a football and take a tackle. That little boys do not feel ashamed when they do not want to play with their GI Joes and race cars. That everyone around the world no matter what their gender be safe and able to experience and live their life to the fullest. That and much much more is what this amazing woman has taught me. And that it’s totally fine to yell vagina. Even though people look at you weird.
Favorite comic book character.
This is where T and I are quite similar in the sense that. We’re tied for first. Wonder Woman, obviously. She’s the only female in the Justice League. She’s way more badass than Batgirl. Catwoman is just weird. Spidergirl. Dumb. All of them follow the suit of a man. Wonder Woman steps out of that box and is her own entity. Besides who doesn’t love the golden lasso/the thought of being tied up in it. My other first place? Spidey. Despite the fact that he was bit by a radioactive spider (scary) Peter Parker is adorable and a writer, who doesn’t love that. He webslings (awesome), can scale walls (handy if you lock yourself out of your house and I frequently do), and has an excellent color combo going on. Oh and loves Mary Jane Watson, who is phenomenal and I love her.
A place I’ve been.
Mallorca. The biggest schmorgasboard of cultures. Ever. Hola. Bonjour. Guten tag. Hello? Ding ding ding. You want to come to our club? No thank you I promised my mom I would come home from this school trip.